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It’s not always easy, but it’s always worth it
So tonight I’m thinking about life in the mindset of total honesty. And with that…
I’m sitting with my computer on my lap, it’s one in the morning, watching dancing with the stars on my laptop and i’ve been carbo-loading in prep for this activity. I just watched the cute bubbley diva from “Hairspray” have a melt-down in rehearsals for her big dance. Seeing this made me come to the conclusion that for at least a lot of us, life isn’t always easy. Some make it look easier than others. Some slide across the dance floor without even hearing the music. Others listen so intensely that they can’t even think to move. I’m realizing that I’ve had it easy for such a long time. I’ve been so lucky, and still have my luck when it comes to getting the best parking spots at the grocery store, and that I ended up on the floor to watch Obama’s Portland Rally… but you know what? I can’t always be the lucky one. There are many people in the world who have earned their luck, too. I say that, cause I think it’s not always given, and it’s not always earned, and it’s not always random. Sometimes it’s none, sometimes is all… I’m still watching the dancing and am feeling distracted, so I’m rambling, but not gonna edit. Words for the world, for none or for all.Even though I didn’t get a job I thought I’d get today, I still feel really lucky. I feel like I’ve got the most amazing family in the whole world and am in love with the same man after three years together. That feels like luck, but we’ve earned it, too. Luck is the family part.
I’m proud to be 35 and a day, proud and lucky. Earning the grey and the wrinkle, earning the sunny days as much as trying to gain understanding for the rainy ones.
With love